OK, so I’m trying this new thing. And I need your help. Because, though it’s not really an addiction, there’s something I do a lot that needs to stop. Apologizing.
Now, I’ll of course still apologize if I do something really wrong or upset someone or hurt their feelings or accidentally step on their foot or something because I’m clumsy like that, but I won’t about little things – stupid things that require no apology at all.
It’s been brought to my attention – on more than one occasion and especially lately when I’ve been super-stressed or anxious about other things – that I apologize WAY too much. 99.9 percent of the time I do it when I don’t need to. For things like, I dunno, BEING MYSELF.
Yeah. Ridiculous. I know. Don’t ask me why because I really have no idea. And the reasons I think would fill more room than I have allowed for this post. Part of it I guess is my fear of pissing someone off. Part of it is not sticking up for myself with everything I say.
And admitting it is the first step. Second step is shutting the hell up. Not in general, just thinking about it before I say “Sorry.” Because usually it’s unnecessary. And I get that now. And I’ll stop. I promise.