Mood music

First of all, not that kind so get your mind out of the gutter.

Back in the day, I used to make mixed CDs like it was my job. They reflected my mood at the time and all I can say looking back is “Why wasn’t I diagnosed as clinically depressed years earlier?”

Oh, and also, “I can’t believe I liked country music that much.” Note to self: Find more of those for #tbt hilariousness on here…

Now it’s all about the playlist, and for the first time in a while, I made one recently. I call it “Songs I’m currently obsessed with.”

They’re not necessarily new, but I can’t stop playing them for whatever reason. So now I share them with you.

You’re welcome.

1. “Like I’m Gonna Lose You,” by Meghan Trainor and John Legend because JOHN LEGEND MAKES EVERYTHING BETTER.
Sidetone: He’s not on my old list or my soon-to-be updated one, but if that man just sang to me, personally… I would do whatever he wanted. Told me to rob a bank? Yes, John Legend. Whatever you want.

2. “Make It Rain,” by Ed Sheeran
It was on the final season of Sons of Anarchy, which I recently binge-watched in its entirety and what caused me to update the aforementioned list because CHARLIE HUNNAM YES PLEASE. Plus Ed Sheeran can do no wrong.

3. “Locked Away,” by R City feat. Adam Levine
So. Damn. Catchy.

4. “Uma Thurman,” by Fall Out Boy
Can we talk for one second about how Fall Out Boy is seriously underrated? Their albums are the shit.

5. “3 Things” by Jason Mraz
This would probably be on a mixed CD (were I to make one now) about three times, because it’s so good. And my mindset these past few months kinda.

6. “Shut Up and Dance” by Walk the Moon
Overplayed on local radio and I’m still obsessed. Makes me want to jump up and down. Constantly. So there’s that. Is that moshing? I’m old.

7.  “Drag Me Down” by One Direction
Do not judge. This is a damn good song.

8. “Only Love,” by Mumford & Sons
Actually, just add the entire Wilder Mind album here. Some didn’t like it. I haven’t gotten anywhere close to being tired of it yet.

9. “Someone New,” by Hozier
Just add the entire Hozier album here too. Except for “Take Me to Church” because it’s overplayed and also my youth group kids keep suggesting it for singing at church because I don’t think they listen to lyrics.

10. “Cookie,” by R. Kelly
Because Magic Mike XXL. Therefore, listen to at your own risk. But NSFW. Ok so now that one does fit the title.

Looking for recommendations for new stuff though as well. What do you all recommend I listen to?



See: previous post.

This girl knows my heart and I need to see her in concert again, ASAP.

#TBT Tunes: Double trouble

I’m writing this whilst suffering from insomnia. But posting it later – the magic of technology.

But what better way to entertain yourself when probably everyone else is asleep than to go through old CDs and laugh at your taste in music 10 or more years ago?

Yeah, so, we already revisited my old mixes numbers one, two, three and four.

Tonight? Five and six.

Lawa CD 5, y’all
Track 1 – “When You Say Nothin’ At All,” Alison Krauss.
That breakup took a LONG-ass time to get over. Dang. Apparently we are now at the “But he was so great, not a total asshole, remember the good times” stage. Pfft.

Track 2 – “Underneath Your Clothes,” Shakira
See comment on track one.

Track 3 – “Leavin’ On A Jet Plane,” Chantal Kreviazuk
I wore out this version.

Track 4 – “Baby Mine” Alison Krauss
I think I had just seen O Brother, Where Art Thou and was obsessed with Alison Krauss’ voice and found everything she’d sang that wasn’t on that soundtrack that I’d already listened to 19,000 times. Also this is the song from Dumbo that is heartbreaking.

Track 5 – “We Danced,” Brad Paisley
Yeah I wasn’t completely out of the country phase at this point..

Track 6 – “First Date,” Blink 182
Well this is a change from the previous track. Shit.

Track 7 – “I Love Rock ‘n’ Roll,” Britney Spears
*hangs head in shame*

Track 8 – “Think Of A Reason Later,” Leann Womack
Catchy as hell. And the lyrics are funny.

Track 9 – “Bring On The Rain,” Jo Dee Messina
Ohhh country music is really good for depression.

Track 10 – “You’ll Be In My Heart,” Phil Collins

Track 11 – “#1,” Nelly
Because that’s naturally what should come next, duh.

Track 12 – “I Got You Babe,” Sonny & Cher
I don’t even…

Track 13 – “Wherever You Will Go,” The Calling
You guys, this CD is making weird noises in the laptop and I’m afraid it might break it. So that totally means I need to break/rid the world of this CD. You’re welcome.

Lawa CD 6 is subtitled “Country Mix 1.” Um, young Laura, I beg to differ. I believe there have been a couple country mixes preceding this one. But whatever.

Track 1: “Prayin’ for Daylight,” Rascal Flatts
Fun fact: I saw these guys in concert like, four times.

Track 2: “Tall Tall Trees,” Alan Jackson
What’s he doing these days?

Track 3: “I Breathe In,” Chris Cagle
And, what’s HE doing these days?

Track 4: “Write This Down,” George Strait
Take a little note…

Track 5: “What If She’s An Angel,” Brad Paisley
I forgot about this song. This is boring, are you bored?

Track 6: “It’s A Great Day To Be Alive,” Travis Tritt
‘Member how Travis and I are BFF?

Track 7: “Strawberry Wine,” Deana Carter
Oh man, this song. You know what it’s about? Well, one time I sang it with my best friend and my ex at karaoke and in the middle of it (after several alcoholic beverages) I called out the ex and said “Oh hey, remember that?” HAHAHAHA. Sorry again, Rebeck.

Track 8: “Forever and Ever Amen,” Randy Travis
I will always love this song.

Track 9: “The Lucky One,” Alison Krauss
Oh, there’s Alison Krauss again.

Track 10: “So Complicated,” Carolyn Dawn Johnson

Track 11: “Amazed,” Lonestar
This is a prom song.

Track 12: “What I Really Meant To Say,” Cyndi Thomson
These CDs are where one-hit-wonder country singers go to die.

Track 13: “When I Think About Angels,” Jamie O’Neal
See previous track.

Track 14: “I’m Moving On,” Rascal Flatts
Please tell me this song is a clue to the end of the depression/super-awful song choices on these mixes. At least for a little while…

Track 15: “She’s In Love With The Boy,” Trisha Yearwood
Fun fact: My sister hates Trisha Yearwood.

And with that, I’m sleepy. Hopefully CD 7 is much better..

#TBT Tunes

After the last monstrosity, I honestly don’t know what to expect on this one. Your guess is as good as mine. we go.

Track 1: “I Learned That From You,” Sara Evans
Obviously still in the depression. I’d definitely just been broken up with. ‘Cause that’s when I WORE THIS SONG OUT.

Track 2: “Come What May,” Moulin Rouge Soundtrack
I will never NOT love this song though. Real talk.

Track 3: “Something Like You,” NSYNC
Oh Lord. I have failed as a fan. Completely forgot about this song. So much so that the weird instrument at the beginning had me thinking it was Kenny G. Also: Baby Justin Timberlake!

Track 4: “Crush,” Dave Matthews Band
Fun fact: This was me and an ex’s “song.” Vomit. Hate him. Love the song though. Maybe I won’t throw this CD away like I did the last one.

Track 5: “Angel,” Dave Matthews Band
Another good one. Jennifer is judging right now but Matt is totally agreeing with me.

Track 6: “Selfish,” NSYNC
Really? Another lost NSYNC song. Didn’t remember this one either. I’m returning my NSYNC Christmas CD. Not worthy.

Track 7: “The Dance,” Garth Brooks
AKA one of the saddest songs ever written. I want to tell high school me about Prozac.

Track 8: “Your Song,” Moulin Rouge Soundtrack
Ewan McGregor, you have the voice of an angel.

Track 9: “The Healing Kind,” LeeAnn Womack
I can’t wait until we get back to my rap rebirth.

Track 10: “The Storm,” Garth Brooks
Every track has made me more disappointed in myself.

Track 11: “Cold Day in July,” Dixie Chicks
Is it over yet? Sidenote: You really can’t beat Dixie Chicks when it comes to belting songs in your car or drunk karaoke.

Track 12: “Without You,” Dixie Chicks
Another breakup standby. Bet this is on at least 3 other mixes, btw.

Track 13: “Two People Fell In Love,” Brad Paisley
AKA wedding/anniversary song schmoozefest

Track 14: “Callin’ Baton Rouge,” Garth Brooks
I love this song so much. And Rachel and I sing it loudly together and we especially like the part (and sing it EXTRA loud) when he says “Hello Samantha dear, I hope you’re feelin’ fine….and it won’t be long until I’m with you all the time.” Because sister.

Track 15: “Gone,” NSYNC
And I’m sad again. Good grief.

Track 16: “All My Life,” KCi & JoJo
Remember what I told ya ’bout these guys?

#TBT Tunes

We are on Lawa CD 3, kids.

Let’s do this.

Track 1: “Two Pina Coladas,” Garth Brooks
OK I might actually listen to this entire song. Old school Garth…nothing like it. And he remains one of like three country artists whose albums I can listen to in their entirety.

Track 2: “Helplessly, Hopelessly, Recklessly,” Jessica Andrews
I’m sorry you guys, this was my country phase. I don’t know what’s coming next. Don’t judge me too harshly.

Track 3: “Angry All The Time,” Tim McGraw
Yeah, the title kinda says it. I think I was probably majorly depressed at this point. Must have gotten dumped not too long before this was made. This is a good song though. I’m singing along.

Track 4: “Already There,” Lonestar

Track 5: “With You,” Lila McCann
Damn, I keep waiting to go to the next one and it be some Ja Rule or Nelly. Also – what happened to some of these people? I haven’t heard anything about them probably since I made this CD.

Track 6: “Cowboy Take Me Away,” Dixie Chicks
Liz and I absolutely KILL this song at karaoke. In a good way. I think. After several margaritas.

Track 7: “Any Man Of Mine,” Shania Twain
Oh shit. Shania.

Track 8: “One Way Ticket,” LeAnn Rimes
Here’s where you can really feel sorry for me. Not only because LEANN RIMES. But because I still know all the words. I have for all of these. Do I remember half of the stuff I learned in high school? Nope. But every word to every song on every single mix I’ve got? YOU BET. (Sidenote – is this not the MOST 90s video EVER?)

Track 9: “She Thinks My Tractor’s Sexy,” Kenny Chesney
NOT AGAIN. I’m breaking this disc once this post is done.

Track 10: “Why They Call It Falling,” Lee Ann Womack
Inner monologue before this song starts “Please don’t have any more Kenny songs on here…”

Track 11: “The River,” Garth Brooks
Such a depressing mix of songs. What year was this? Who had hurt me? I blame KD. I blame all my high school drama on undiagnosed depression and KD.

Track 12: “Wide Open Spaces,” Dixie Chicks
Aw, remember when the Dixie Chicks were relevant? And good?

Track 13: “The Healin’ Kind,” Lee Ann Womack
Lord, help 16-year-old me. She’s a hot mess.

Track 14: “Friends in Low Places,” Garth Brooks
More Garth Brooks live. This one’s about getting drunk, which I actually never did in high school. #wastedopportunities #bandnerd #highonlife

Track 15: “Cowboy in Me,” Tim McGraw
I mean, I thought they’d at least KIND of pick up by now..

Track 16: “I Reckon I Will,” Lila McCann
Obviously loved me some two-hit wonder female country singers at this point in life.

Track 17: “Telluride,” Tim McGraw
Good song, but thank God this is the last track.

#TBT Tunes

In honor of Throwback Thursdays, I’d like to share with you a new (old) bit of awesomeness.

Last week, I got the awesome idea to start looking through my old mixed CDs for those burned in high school and college.

I have laughed, I have cried, I have judged myself.

This week we revisit “Lawa CD 2.” Get ready to live…

Track 1: “Who I Am,” Jessica Andrews
This isn’t starting off well.

Track 2: “Everything I Do,” Bryan Adams
What the…. what was wrong with me at this point?

Track 3: “Who’s That Girl?” Eve
OK, I was beginning to wonder. And get very nervous for tracks 3-17.

Track 4: “Put It On Me,” Ja Rule
Also known as me and Rebecca’s song. “Where would I be without my bay-bay??”
Ja Rule, man. I love him.

Track 5: “Can I Get A…” Jay-Z
Now, if you had heard just the first two songs on here – hell, even just the first one, would you have known this one was comin’?
If that fact surprises you, you don’t know me at all. But seriously I don’t know why those first two are part of this mix.

Track 6: “Play,” J-Lo
I’m sensing a pattern in my life at this point…

Track 7: “She Thinks My Tractor’s Sexy,” Kenny Chesney

Track 8: “I Hope You Dance,” LeAnn Womack
I might break this CD once I’m done writing this blog.

Track 9: “I Want You To Want Me,” Letters To Cleo
Ah, the 10 Things I Hate About You soundtrack……

Track 10: “Danger,” Mystikal
This is officially the weirdest mix CD ever made.

Track 11: “Stutter (Remix),” Joe feat. Mystikal
I did love me some Mystikal back in the day. And this was the jam.

Track 12: “Ride Wit Me,” Nelly
There he is. Wondered when he’d make another appearance…

Track 13: “Digital Get Down,” NSYNC
I’m laughing so hard I can’t see the computer screen. IT’S ABOUT SEXTING/SKYPE SEX. They were so progressive….

Track 14: “Shake Ya Ass,” Mystikal
WHAT DID I SAY about Mystikal?!?

Track 15: “So Fresh So Clean,” Outkast
Now known as the song I sometimes sing out loud after a shower.

Track 16: “Born To Fly,” Sara Evans
Also known as the first and only song I ever sang solo at karaoke and am still recovering from it….moving on….

Track 17: “Utha Side,” Nelly
I dare you to find a Nelly song (pre-duet w/Tim McGraw) that I don’t still know every single word to.

These can only get better, y’all. Maybe.

#TBT Tunes

In honor of Throwback Thursdays, I’d like to share with you a new (old) bit of awesomeness.

You see, back when we had that Murder Mystery New Year’s Eve Party, those of us (all of us) who couldn’t do math thought our “reunion” was taking place in 2003. So, cue me looking into my mixed CDs for those burned in my second and third semesters at college.

Ohhhh, the flashbacks. And the eclectic-ness.

So it’s made me want to explore some more of my old mixes that I haven’t listened to in years. This week? We journey through “Laura CD 1.” Not sure what year it was made. So mysterious.

Track 1: “Angel,” Shaggy.
Because, obviously. Where else would you start?

Track 2: “The Call,” Backstreet Boys
Oh. My. God.
“Listen baby, I’m sorry, just wanna tell you don’t worry. I will be late, don’t stay up and wait for me. Say again, you’re dropping out, my battery is low. Just so you know, goin’ to a place nearby, gotta go.” Such bad boys.

Track 3: “Get Another Boyfriend,” Backstreet Boys
Well, someone was on a kick.

Track 4: “VMA Live Performance” NSYNC
2000. The year I decided “This I Promise You” was totally gonna be my wedding song. No changing my mind on that one. Whoops.

Track 5: “What’chu Like,” Da Brat feat. Tyrese
Not even joking. You don’t know me. P.s. Tyrese…mmmmm.

Track 6: “Crazy For This Girl,” Evan and Jaron
Of all the songs so far on here, the only one I’m really not proud of is this one.

Track 7: “Sin Wagon,” Dixie Chicks
Because why not.
It’s SO FAST. I love it.

Track 8: “If My Heart Had Wings,” Faith Hill
It was a confusing time in my life. Did I like country? Did I like pop? Did I like rap? DID I LIKE THEM ALL?? So many questions.

Track 9: “Between Me And You,” Ja Rule
The obvious next track after Faith Hill. Sometimes I think about Ja Rule and wonder what he is doing these days…

Track 10: “Love Don’t Cost A Thing,” J-Lo

Track 11: “Crazy,” K-Ci & JoJo
Time to slow it down. High school make out music, y’all.
Seriously, if you wanted to make out with me in high school, play some K-Ci & JoJo.’d still work now.

Track 12: “All My Life,” K-Ci & JoJo
I’M JUST SAYIN’. Jesus take the wheel….

Track 13: “Ladies Night,” Lil’ Kim, Left Eye, Da Brat & Missy Elliott
First of all, RIP Left Eye. Second of all, revisiting this mix is making me so happy. Third of all, all good songs start with the sound of rolling dice.

Track 14: “What’s Your Fantasy?” Ludacris
Fun fact: Listened to this on the radio in a church van on a ski trip w/youth group that year. #Presbyterians

Track 15: “Don’t Tell Me,” Madonna
I don’t even like Madonna.

Track 16: “E.I.” Nelly
Country Grammar fo’ life.
“I’m a sucka for cornrows and manicured toes..”

Track 17: “Liquid Dreams,” O-Town
I wish I was lying.

Track 18: “Sorry Miss Jackson,” Outkast
All the baby’s mamas mamas.
I miss Outkast.
Related-ish: Want to see my favorite Andre 3000 moment ever: Skip to 6:15.

This movie is so underrated. One of my all-time favorites.

Track 19: “You Make Me Sick,” Pink
The grand finale of the first of many volumes of mixed CDs. I can dig it. Pink is the shit. I have two of her albums. Girl got attitude.

Join us next time for the equally mysterious, untouched since 2000 mix, “Lawa CD 2.” We graduated to nicknames. Shit was serious.


There’s this new-ish song I like. And surprise, surprise, it’s by Katy Perry. She of the mega girl crush I have. I love her.

Anyways. I bought her new album not too long after it came out and there are a few on there I’ve kept on repeat, but none more than this one.

It’s called “Unconditionally,” and besides the fact that its a great song and so much fun to belt in the car when I’m by myself, I like what she says in the lyrics. And I can definitely relate.

Supposedly she wrote it about John Mayer and it basically says “no matter what you did or what baggage you’ve got or what faults or mistakes or anything, I will love you. And all you have to do is do the same for me.”

And if ever a song was relatable for me, it’s this one. Not in the exact same way, necessarily, but the overall message.

I’ve always prided myself on being a pretty nonjudgmental person. I give people the benefit of the doubt most of the time (sometimes when I shouldn’t) but generally, if you’re in my life and you’re someone I care about – friend, family member, boyfriend, whatever – I love you unconditionally. No matter what you’ve done or not done or been through or whatever. And all I expect is the same in return. When I haven’t gotten it, I’ve moved on (took me a while to realize it in my younger days, but we all have lessons to learn).

Basically, it’s the holidays and late at night and I’m sappy and in a good mood and want you all to hear this song. And to know I love y’all, unconditionally.

Lovey dovey

I saw John Mayer in concert a long time ago. Twice, actually. I think? It’s been a while.

And I saw my girl Katy Perry a couple years ago. Best concert I’ve ever seen (until this summer’s NKOTB/Boyz II Men/98 Degrees amazingness). But we aren’t talking about that now.

Allegedly, John and Katy are together. And this makes me happy. Because they both make beautiful music that describes my life at various times and they’re just generally great and now…guess what. They made a song together.

And it’s glorious.

Seriously, I’ve had it on repeat for days and it makes me wanna fall in love so bad. And also makes me hope they never break up.

But yeah. Just give it a listen and tell me you don’t like it.

I especially like this part..

“My boy ain’t the one that I saw coming,
Some have said his heart’s to hard to hold.
It takes a little time, but you should see him when he shines.
Because you’ll never want to let that feeling go.”