I came, I saw, I winked. And then I moved on.

One month. That’s how long it took me to decide. It was a month when my insomnia came back full-force, when my anxiety moved from threat level yellow (where it stays most of the time) to red-orange or orange-red or whatever that crayon color is. It was a month when I had paid $35 andContinue reading “I came, I saw, I winked. And then I moved on.”

Keep my eyes to serve, my hands to learn

Did you feel a change in the atmosphere Tuesday? Like the world got a little better and colors were brighter and while life might still have been kicking your ass, at least it was wearing slippers instead of steel-toed boots? It’s on account of The Album. Mumford’s new one, DUH. They played some of thisContinue reading “Keep my eyes to serve, my hands to learn”

Breathe in, breathe out

Three hours after I was supposed to be sound asleep last night, I wasn’t. I hadn’t even come close yet. Instead, I laid there (lie there? I never know the right tense) and stared. I stared at the closet door and then I rolled over and stared at my bookcase. I stared at the lightContinue reading “Breathe in, breathe out”

Getting serious here for a minute

It’s not always fun and games over here at on-account-of.com, or, in my offline existence either. But you know that, I’ve talked about it plenty before and for the most part, I am an open book, take it or leave it. That said, I want to talk about something important, something serious. And it’s aboutContinue reading “Getting serious here for a minute”

If I were a superhero

First of all, the thought of me as a superhero makes me laugh. Several reasons…you have to wear super-tight clothing, which I do not. You have to be rich, which I am not. And I didn’t have a traumatic childhood experience that completely changed me or a magnet placed in the center of my chest,Continue reading “If I were a superhero”

Not sleeping is not a good thing

For a good portion of my adult life – I’m counting mainly after college – I’ve had trouble, off and on, with insomnia. A little over a year ago, when my anxiety was at an all-time high, it was probably the worst it’s been. Lots of late-night TV and Internet roaming for this lady. DuringContinue reading “Not sleeping is not a good thing”

It’s like allergies. For your brain.

I have a dream of a day when I’ll wake up without one of the following – a headache, a stuffy nose or a sore throat. And on that day, I don’t know what I’ll do, on account of I’ve never had a miracle happen to me before so I don’t really know the protocol,Continue reading “It’s like allergies. For your brain.”

Whenever I get sad, I stop being sad…

…and be awesome instead. That’s a quote from a show. Don’t act like you’re surprised – TV and movies are where most of my conversations come from anyway, remember? This particular one is from How I Met Your Mother and maybe one of the best characters on TV, Barney Stinson. It’s also kind of beenContinue reading “Whenever I get sad, I stop being sad…”