Remember how, like, a month or so ago I said, “hey I’m gonna do this couch to 5K thing” and I was super-motivated for some crazy reason?
It’s been a little busy and I’ve been a little sleep-deprived as of late and seriously the only thing I ever want to do anymore is sleep. Until I get into my bed. And then I just lay there, staring at the ceiling, thinking about tomorrow..and the next day…and oh, December…you know, thinking RIDICULOUSLY FAR AHEAD.
So here we go with the excuses. Blame insomnia, blame stress from work, blame taking on other commitments during the week outside of work. Blame Seasonal Affective Disorder.
I want to go to the gym. I want to get back into running like I was when I was getting myself ready for all those 5Ks and planning for next year’s (again with the thinking WAY AHEAD). But I need a regular schedule for that. I don’t know one week to the next what will come up. I mean, I have a semi-regular schedule, but stuff happens. Then there’s my not-work commitments, which just recently changed. I have yet another night of the week that’s busy. And I don’t mind it at all. I wouldn’t do it if I didn’t want to. But with all this, the work, the not-work, the trying to still have a social life instead of just watch TV at my apartment all the time – I am busy. And busy makes me tired. And busy also makes me stay awake – to think about all the things that are keeping me busy. Then I stay up until 1 or 2 a.m. and want to sleep too long in the morning – I even have slept a little long a couple times, but definitely not on purpose.
I am never going to be a morning person. I’ve tried to be. I can’t. Especially now. One of the ways I could fix the whole finding time to work out thing is by getting up before work in the morning. Ohhhh do I wish I could. Really I do. What I need is something to do in my apartment. An elliptical machine or treadmill or something that I could do any time of day, while I’m watching TV.
I don’t want to be lazy. And I don’t think I am, in any other part of my life. It’s just so hard to make myself go do something when all I really want to do is just relax, because I don’t have that much time to do that these days. I’m gonna figure something out.
In other news – very, very cute pictures of kids in Halloween costumes coming soon. 🙂